._. Ah, hello there. Sorry for being silent for so long.

TTwTT *cuddles my contest prizes and webcomic* Soon, they shall all come to completion...Then, I can stuff the little bastards in a trash can as soon as I put them on the Internet. But no, seriously, I think I could stand respecting my art a little more, huh? Except, it's a strange situation where I have this tender little ego that's easily squished, so when I see such awesomeness, and here I am, muddling about my mediocrity, it's like a quiet, yet powerful way of whispering, in my ear, "J00 are a failure." Then again, it reminds me of this small section of my newspaper's Today section, where they talk about, of all things, chess, and give you a little strategic puzzle to figure out. But this one, in particular, said that it is a common belief to those who hold lofty ambitions that if "genius" (the article, speaking about a young chess prodigy) does not manifest in its early childhood years, then genius will never come. Alas, I am one of those sad people. I feel if genius does not manifest by my old age of seventeen, I have to take the one thing left to me, and left to the majority of people: experience.

Don't get me wrong, there's nothing bad about experience. I guess I've always wanted to be special in some way, and now, I just have to face that I'll die alone, a virgin, and nobody will remember me. XD I don't know why I find this hilarious and nobody else does. Maybe I should pop a zoloft. XDD ._. Oh, that wasn't funny. x.x;;;

I mean, think about it this way: if a twenty-something year-old made a brilliant piece of art, you think, "Well, shyeah, they went to college and stuff." If a sixteen year-old does this, you think, "HOLY CANDY-COATED MOSES! IT IS BRILLIANT!" I now experience what a 27 year-old is referred to: "Too old to be young, too young to be old." Le sigh.

._. Who knows. Maybe I'll be blessed with an immaculate vision of Tetsuya, and be granted the divine powers of pwnz0rz. At any rate, maybe it's my Libra nature, but if you hold the sway of approval over the masses, you have power. Why am I such a sap? Why could I just be an Aquarius and be happy with anything? XD Nooo, I had to be a Libra, what with my ego and manipulativeness (which I try to keep in check, but sometimes, you're just evil.)

Well, there you have it. I've draw ten pages of the AE comic, four absolutely complete (a page preview to be posted eventually), more comic prizes, aaaaand...stuff. Hopefully, some contest-type things.

Speaking of comic prizes, much thanks to , who so nicely sent me my contest prize of Christina and Buckman. Much awesomeness.

Oh, by the way, I must also say, I think the only reason my deviantart gallery gets me any exposure at all is because I have ToS on it. I know, I love ToS, but the only real favorites I get are on my fanart pieces. WHAT ABOUT THE ORIGINALS?! CAN'T YOU LIKE THEM FOR WHAT THEY ARE?!?!?! *sobs* Times like this, it makes me think about why I draw. Particularly because sometimes, I feel like the only reason I do art is because it's the only thing I'm good at...But, I'm not GIFTED at it, so it's like my best quality is still average. Which makes the rest of me feel like garbage.

._. I'm just looking for a little love and approval. *opens arms for hug* .. Hug me! I'm a Libra!

Well, be off, whoever chose to read my complaining. .o. May talent and inspiration visit you, 'cause it sure as Hell ain't comin' here. XD Shoo!

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